When we are young, and we have dreams and thought about we want to be when we grow up, who would think that achieving that would be so hard. Or that upon meeting that goal or dream would result in a realization that it's not really what we wanted. Or that, after doing it for a while, we are so ready to move on to something else.
For me, this is not really an issue as while growing up all I wanted was to be a mom. A young mom, to 4 children. And 2 of those 4 would be twins! LOL! Okay, so I became a mom when I was young and I did have my 4th child at an age that many women haven't even considered starting a family. The twin thing didn't quite work out, but I have to say that I am quite all right with that!
Only after having my children did I realize that I really wanted to set a good example with the importance of an education, so, here I am 31 and in my 2nd year of college, while working full time, doing Real Esate and being a wife and mother. Is it easy? Not exactly! But is it worth it, absolutely! Though, I am still unsure of where I will go with my degree, I know that it will be in a field that I enjoy working because I firmly believe you have to love what you do if you want to not be miserable at work.
Adam...that's a different story! He always knew he wanted to be a cop. Well, not just a cop, but a state trooper. After pursuing a degree from Vincennes University, he didn't think it would be that hard to enter the field of law enforcement, but it was. He went from working security, to the prison, to the jail and finally on to GPD! 6 wonderful years there with the GPD family and then on to ISP. So, I guess it took him 8 years to accomplish his dream???
Whoever said it would be easy??? I am not sure I agree. Being the wife of a cop has it's highs and lows. I am so proud of him and what he does for everyone. He gets compliments, letters and even cards sent in thanking him for a job well done from people sometimes. People are constantly stopping and thanking him in public. Being as state trooper/cop is not a job, it's a lifestyle and a hard one at that. It's hard on the cop and hard on their family. It is, quite honestly, a 24/7 career. And, usually, these public servants are not compensated accordingly, yet, they still do it! I think all too often, we, the public, forget these things.
I am a worrier. I worry about Adam almost every day he's working. I don't know why. I know he takes every safety precaution he can to make sure he comes home at night. I know that whatever is in God's plan will be, no matter if I worry or not. For 10 years, he has been on evenings and every night he works, I cannot go to sleep until he's home. It doesn't matter if it's a weeknight and he has to work over until 2am, I am awake until I hear the garage door open. I have tried everything to help me get to sleep, and I just cannot. This not only affects me, but it worries Adam as well, which is the last thing he needs to be worrying about especially when he's out there working.
We've been praying for a change. A change of schedule, position or anything that will give us more time together. Adam misses so much time with the kids and we rarely have any quality time together as a family. Today, he has an interview for such a position that will create this change. Adam says not to hold my breath because he's heard they already know who they want, but, I am. I am holding my breath, crossing my fingers and praying constantly that God has directly us here and that He will move the obstacles in our path for this change to occur. If not, we will hold steady for the open door later.
But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
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